Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Going Back...
... I realized how sappy and depressed I am.
... And how I have that, "Don't **** with me or you're gonna go down!" whenever I'm tired.
... I don't like starting debates especially when I'm pissed.
... I might as well use force.
Monday, March 30, 2015
Is it Just Me...
... or have I been influenced by Uta no Prince-sama, that I did sing the first three phrases of the last post?
Over the Course of Time...
... I, then, realized how much I have been destroying myself.
Only to put them back together.
Except that, it was no longer the same whole picture.
I created an equally distorted image of myself.
I kept creating and erasing and forgetting.
Maybe up to the point, I might forget who I really am.
Only to put them back together.
Except that, it was no longer the same whole picture.
I created an equally distorted image of myself.
I kept creating and erasing and forgetting.
Maybe up to the point, I might forget who I really am.
An hour left...
... Today was fun at the very least.
I get to post a lot.
I admit, my emotions are getting out of hand... yet again.
I do think I'm mentally unstable, I don't know how long I can still hold the dam.
Because stupid hormones.
I get to post a lot.
I admit, my emotions are getting out of hand... yet again.
I do think I'm mentally unstable, I don't know how long I can still hold the dam.
Because stupid hormones.
Screaming Alert
Misako and I were watching Uta no Prince-sama when I felt something black on my shoulder, I looked at my shoulder and nothing was there so I thought it was only my hair and I'm so paranoid.
But when I looked from the bed across me, a spider jumped.
Late reaction, peepz.
I screamed like a girl.
But when I looked from the bed across me, a spider jumped.
Late reaction, peepz.
I screamed like a girl.
Ayano's Theory of Laziness
Because Ayano was too lazy to think of anything to make her family happy.
She killed herself.
She thought it was the only way for her family to continue as it is.
There's no way, that there wasn't any other way for her to save her family.
Even though, something happened.
Not every story has a happy ending.
Fairy tales are bedtime stories.
They put people to sleep so they can have dreams.
And those dreams, create theories.
Those theories came out as truth.
Once the truth is revealed, those who kept it would want to hide.
Acting because of the surge of emotions only lead to a bad ending.
"Because you can't hope for a horror story to have a happy ending."
Memories may recreate.
Happy times may replacate.
But the truth of despair cannot be avoided.
Your own selfish desires become a crime.
You're the one who's prolonging the pain and suffering.
And that, itself, cannot be happiness.
Never-Ending School Daze...
... has finally ended.
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When I started again, /because I did read my posts again/, I realized just by reading how much pain, I had when Allen left. Now my mind, being more twisted than ever, never really understood why I sulked by the mere fact that I wouldn't see Allen.
I contemplated things but I reached into a fair conclusion.
I'm scared of being separated... because once I broke the thin line connecting me to other people... I'd forget them... like that girl in Isshuukan Friends. Come Monday, she'll forget everything that happened. Like Latifa in Amagi Brilliant Park, whenever April would come, she'd forget all the memories and had to start from scratch. They knew it'd happened and they simply want to prevent it. That's why I don't like making connections with people. What's the point of having them if I'll forget them so quickly?
They'd say the mind may forget but the heart will remember. The heart controls your life while the brain controls your body or at least that's what I think. When your heart stops pumping, your life altogether ends. But when your brain is dead, your life fades away. Breathing but not living.
What's the point of the heart that remembers if the brain that sends messages does not respond at all?
I think it's more of the psychological explanation that feelings you think that came from the heart triggers memories. Ok, I'm done and gone. This post is getting too sappy.
And to add, I've fairly well-balanced my grades and my otaku life.
100 Truths About Me
For now, I believe is an updated and I'm honestly saying that it is the one truth
100 Things
1. Real name: Misaki Megane (Ok, I lied for the first part.)
2. Nicknames: Misa, Tummy Rumbles, Shotacon (by the AI), Gonzales, Onee-sama (Misako calls me that), Paper Doll (my pretty signature), Mitsubishi/ Mitsu (plane name by the Tank), UK (by NECTO)
3. Zodiac Sign: With Libra ranking #5 for today, your lucky item/s is/are egg dish/es. The lucky color is green.
4. Male or female: And nobody should know...
5. Elementary School: I studied at a fairly nice elementary school.
6. High School: I'm still in 3rd year middle school. Graduating at the very least.
7. College: I haven't entered college yet.
8. Hair color: Raven Black
9. Tall or short: Shortest among the short. I'm a dwarf. (unfortunately…)
10. Shirt or Sweater: Fortunately, I like both. Though with shirts, I prefer large, baggy ones same with sweater. And also, don't forget the hoodie. I never forget to wear my hoodie when leaving the house.
11. Sweats or Jeans: Naturally, I'm not picky. Though I don't usually wear sweats so I'd go with the jeans.
12. Phone or Camera: Phone is love life...
13. Health freak: Depends... Other half no, other half yes. Although, I particularly don't care because I'm one of the naturally gifted having fast metabolism that's why I don't weigh more than 40 kilograms. I love to eat and I love food. Also Mura-chin is a perfect example. He's ridiculously tall too. = =
14. Orange or Apple: To be honest, I like mango or melon better. But I'd prefer apple.
15. Do you have a crush on someone?: Gone and done... Happily loving myself.
16. Eat or Drink: = = Are you kidding me? Of course, both.
17. Piercings: I don't remember, if I have ones in my ears do they count?
18. Pepsi or Coke: Anything particular. Both are nice.
HAVE YOU EVER...?
19. Been in an airplane: Probably but maybe when I was a child.
20. Been in a relationship: Had a friendly/sibling/familial/acquaintance/stranger/co-fandom and everything that doesn't included romantic relationship
21. Been in a car accident: No, not that I remember. I mean, I have only gone to the hospital was when I was born. Sooo, are trucks included because I swear trucks wanted to hit me like "Crashing in and breaking into bits... that truck heard a scream a little bit too late. Blood dripping everywhere.." And yes, I'm not treated as Hibiya for no reason. The lyrics were a reference to Kagerou Daze song... (I'm not erasing this...)
22. Been in a fist fight: Does it look like I do? With my build and stature, you won't probably believe me but I'd had my fair share with Cardinal, Tank, Allen, and also with Sky. I'll never forget those times with my imouto as I take them down and Misako's face. (o￣∇￣)=◯)`ν゜) /The one being punched is Misako./
23. First piercing: No.... again so were the ones in my ears count? I would never add up. Kise admitted that it hurts.
24. First best friend: IMAGINARY FRIENDS (☉‿☉✿)
25. First award: Best in Coloring Contest? idk *shrug*
26. First crush: I don't really remember tho... Haji?
27. First word: *cue baby noises* How could I remember?!
28: First car: Does a toy car add? I don't remember having a toy car though I play with them. Because I was a boy when I was a child. Though if you're asking for the real one, then no, I don’t have money for that stuff... Why need it? I have my awesome super fabulous scarf and flappy sleeves of my sparkling hoodie that I use. *flies to the Never-Ending Imagination*
29. Last person you talked in person: Myself and Misako because we were singing Maji Love 1000%
30. Last person you texted: 9999.
31. Last person you went to the movie theaters with: Um... YOLO Group with exception of Maxwell and Celine? Probably during my birthday we watched Annabelle. That was hilarious! ~(-◎ω◎)
32. Last food you ate: Bread? Pie Bread? Something like that...
33. Last movie you watched: Rurouni Kenshin? Dat Live Action. Seriously...
35. Last thing you bought: If I bought it, does that mean I have to be the one who paid for it or I just took it and someone paid for me? If so, it's ice cream.
36. Last person you hugged: Myself... It counts, right?
37. Food(s): If all of the rain drops are lemon drops and gum drops, oh what a rain it would be! Maiubo, popsicle, ice cream, pudding. Anything tasty. Though mostly spicy and sweet stuff.
38. Drink(s): As long as it's not poisonous nor alcohol. Milk shakes, Coffee, Juice and Cola are fine... Water too.
39. Bottom(s): Pants... Um... pants. Jean..
40. Flower(s): I'm never much of a fan of flowers but I guess it would be a black or white rose...
41. Animal(s):Neko and Usagi because Cheshire Cat and White Rabbit
42. Colour(s): Akashi, Murasakibara, Kise, Midorima, Kuroko, Aomine, Momoi
43. Movie(s): Anything interesting, horror and gore movies can count, but mostly anime-related. I don't mind funny movies and I also don't mind those Disney movies at present.
44. Subject(s): Free Time meaning Gakkatsu Time with Classroom Representative Takachiho Chiho.
HAVE YOU EVER: (Put an X in the brackets if yes)
45. [X] fallen in love with someone. (
46. [_] celebrated Halloween. (I wish I could. All dem sweets. And I wouldn't care if I have to dress something ridiculous. No one would know me because I'm in a hoodie.)
47. [X] had your heart broken... (Anime feelz... Feelz... Character Deaths... My poor kokoro...(੭ ˃̣̣̥ ㅂ˂̣̣̥)੭ु)
48. [X] went over the minutes or texts on your cell phone. (Humans usually text me... I rarely got load tho...)
49. [O] had someone question my sexual orientation. (The AI and Tank would pester me about it because they're being ****)
50. [_] had sex. (WTF is that question?!)
51. [_] got pregnant. (Pls refer above.)
52. [_] had an abortion. (Pls refer at #50 and #51)
53. [X] did something I regret. (I don't think I regretted my actions even though I did, I don't really care now.)
54. [O] broke a promise. (Probably...? Yeah because I'm lazy and they know it.)
55. [X] hid a secret. (Got a secret? Can you keep it? Swear this you won't tell. Better lock it in your pocket bearing this one to the grave.)
56. [X] pretended to be happy. (I'm
57. [X] met someone who changed your life. (A lot of someones... or somethings...)
58. [X] pretended to be sick. (I usually does it whenever we have appointments not related to school because laziness or maybe that's the half-truth.)
59. [_] left the country. (If I have tons of money... I would've been in Japan by now.)
60. [X] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it. (I can't believe it either.)
61. [X] cried over the silliest thing. (Obviously, when I was a kid or not? Does pretending count, too?)
62. [X] ran a mile. (More than a mile...a lot of kilometers... more like chasing after the Tank and AI with Allen and because I was pretending ninja)
63. [_] went to the beach with your best friend (I already went into a lot of beaches just not with my best friend. Oh right, I don't have a best friend. *runs into the sunset* //crai)
64. [X] got into an argument with your friends. (More like friendly and joking arguments... *sniffles* I miss those times. At least it didn't got out of the way like what happened between Francis and Fae)
65. [X] hated someone. (With every fiber of my being... but I love everyone so it's a love-hate relationship.)
66. [X] stayed single for 2 years. (I'm entirely single for the living hundred years of my life and it could continue to forever.)
CURRENTLY:
67. Eating: Nope. Though, I am hungry right now.
68. Drinking: Nada.
69. Listening: [KNB] Uta no Prince-sama Maji Love 1000% /Because huway not?/
70. Sitting/Laying: Laying flat on my stomach.
71. Plans for today:Get this post over and post a lot more posts and do something productive.
72. Waiting: For an anime portal open and live in the anime world *still waiting*
YOUR FUTURE:
73. Want kids? : No... On second thought, I could adopt and name them after the Kiseki.
74. Want to get married? : No.
75. Career: Computer Engineer. My one and only dream. Ok, maybe not.
76. Lips or eyes: Forever young because Abyss!
77. Shorter or taller: I love myself as of now and I want it to stay as it is. I don't mind being small but the "short" jokes are getting annoying.
78. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous(ly weird and free)
79. Quiet or Loud: Between. Sociable Introvert. Withdrawn Extrovert.
80. Shy or Confident: Confidently shy.
81. Hook-up or relationship: ERROR404: File not found.
82. Looks or Personality: Of course both, duh...
HAVE YOU EVER:
83. Lost glasses/contacts: This is my first time wearing glasses and I'm currently wearing it now and I don't believe I've lost it but there are times when I become a klutz when I can't find it. Also, I'm never gonna wear contacts.
84. Snuck out of a house: Several times. Mostly at night. (Imma ninja, bish.)
85. Held a gun/knife for self defense: Yep. My invisible gun and my wonderful cutter
86. Killed somebody: In my dreams. And a lot of soldiers, snipers, helicopters in shooting games. Does poor things like insects count? And yeah, earlier, while playing GTA, I made cars explode, butchered people, and chainsawed them.
87. Broken someone's heart: I don’t really know.
88. Been in love: I guess... Love for food, inanimate objects, fictional characters. Does psychopathic love exist? [I really have a different kind of love]
89. Cried when someone died: Yep. Kano you jerk. But I still love you. Can't take this. Why do I have to learn that Break already died last year?! Why did no one tell me?! I'm not ready for the feelz.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90. Yourself: The only one who can beat me is me. So yes, I believe in myself. I need Kurokocchi to get Aominecchi out of my system.
91. Miracles: If I live in the anime world, maybe. Sanae's miracles, I believe in them. Oh and the Generation of Miracles.
92. Love at first sight: No. It takes time and finishing major processing mode. At anime characters, yes because *doki doki* Weird because there's this one time that I didn't really have an interest but my heart seemed to pound. And all I can feel is that love was in the screen.
93. Heaven: Well, there's the sky. So yeah.
94. Santa Clause: Not really. I never really got a proper present. I remember when that one child said that Santa Clause is a criminal because he breaks into people's houses and steals milk and cookies.
95. Kiss on the first date: Huwat? I haven't even dated anyone.
TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now: Well, duh. But not only one. Fictional characters count, right?
97. Do you know who your real friends are: Of course. Because if I don’t I’m probably a monster by now.
98. Do you believe in God: I'm pretty religious. And Yato, and Bishamon, Tenjin-sama, Kofuku and all the Japanese Gods made me believe in them.
99. Rate your awesomeness from 5:
100. Post as 100 truths or die!? Puh-lease… I died almost a lot of time, never resurrected because my body lives, but my mind doesn't and yeah I pretty much am alive.
I added and tweaked here and there. Then everywhere.
KagePro History of the Unnamed Group
You can't trust Aseri to make a story. *sigh* Anyways, I don't even know if we even have a history on our relationship. Though I'll just search out information with my resources.
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It was a drastically long start of school year. Or should I say mid-school year? I don't remember. Though I can assure that at least there'll be at least one reasonable explanation, right?
These explores a part of the Kagerou Project fandom though I feel it's long since then that the anime ended.
1) Paper Doll AKA Misaki as Hibiya
There's no special reason other than the fact, that I have the unfortunate misfortune of being loved by trucks. And my sudden love for traffic lights and pedestrian lanes. I act childishly and a bit tsundere. I can be sassy and cheeky and I get emotional. I don't like being treated as a child, nonetheless. Also, I'm stuck with a guy who loves to eat and one of the largest reason why I always and almost get hit by trucks.
2) Cyborg AKA Allen as Konoha/Kuroha
One of the fact that he always eats and forgets a lot of things. Pretty mysterious if you asked me. And the main guy who likes pushing me into poles and trucks. Just because...
3) AI AKA Cardinal-chan as Ene
Being a cyber being himself, why won't he fit as Ene? Annoying and over-top. Ene, he is. He would do things out of the ordinary. His past is also unknown. Just because...
4) Tank AKA Tomcat as Shintaro
Not really a shut-in. He's pretty good at history, military, and war. We should even make him president. Though I would agree on the part he spends a lot of time in the computer. I don't really delve into his emotion and relationship conflict. Seriously...
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Relationship/s:
I. A. Misaki w/ Allen: He really likes playing tricks on me.
One of the people who I accompany with.
He acts like my guardian sometimes.
One of the reason why I occasionally and almost got hit by trucks.
B. w/ Cardinal-chan: As Ene, he doesn't interact with me, though I believe he took Allen's place of shoving me into the center of the road.
C. w/ Tomcat: He's like my big brother. 'nuff said.
II. A. Allen w/ Cardinal-chan: I believe there's a red thread of fate connecting them.
Both are sadomasochist. ._.
I believe they get along well.
B. w/ Tomcat: I dunno what they do but I think they get along fairly.
III. A. Tomcat w/ Cardinal-chan: They fairly suit each other.
Like Yin and Yang.
I mean they are partners so as Allen and I.
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Allen, these are just my opinions say the least, so yeah.
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It was a drastically long start of school year. Or should I say mid-school year? I don't remember. Though I can assure that at least there'll be at least one reasonable explanation, right?
These explores a part of the Kagerou Project fandom though I feel it's long since then that the anime ended.
1) Paper Doll AKA Misaki as Hibiya
There's no special reason other than the fact, that I have the unfortunate misfortune of being loved by trucks. And my sudden love for traffic lights and pedestrian lanes. I act childishly and a bit tsundere. I can be sassy and cheeky and I get emotional. I don't like being treated as a child, nonetheless. Also, I'm stuck with a guy who loves to eat and one of the largest reason why I always and almost get hit by trucks.
2) Cyborg AKA Allen as Konoha/Kuroha
One of the fact that he always eats and forgets a lot of things. Pretty mysterious if you asked me. And the main guy who likes pushing me into poles and trucks. Just because...
3) AI AKA Cardinal-chan as Ene
Being a cyber being himself, why won't he fit as Ene? Annoying and over-top. Ene, he is. He would do things out of the ordinary. His past is also unknown. Just because...
4) Tank AKA Tomcat as Shintaro
Not really a shut-in. He's pretty good at history, military, and war. We should even make him president. Though I would agree on the part he spends a lot of time in the computer. I don't really delve into his emotion and relationship conflict. Seriously...
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Relationship/s:
I. A. Misaki w/ Allen: He really likes playing tricks on me.
One of the people who I accompany with.
He acts like my guardian sometimes.
One of the reason why I occasionally and almost got hit by trucks.
B. w/ Cardinal-chan: As Ene, he doesn't interact with me, though I believe he took Allen's place of shoving me into the center of the road.
C. w/ Tomcat: He's like my big brother. 'nuff said.
II. A. Allen w/ Cardinal-chan: I believe there's a red thread of fate connecting them.
Both are sadomasochist. ._.
I believe they get along well.
B. w/ Tomcat: I dunno what they do but I think they get along fairly.
III. A. Tomcat w/ Cardinal-chan: They fairly suit each other.
Like Yin and Yang.
I mean they are partners so as Allen and I.
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Allen, these are just my opinions say the least, so yeah.
History of the Unknown Group
A really boring story of how this group came to be...
Long story short, the AI and the Tank already knew each other.
And Allen and I bonded with anime on that fateful night.
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Are you kidding me?
Long story short, the AI and the Tank already knew each other.
And Allen and I bonded with anime on that fateful night.
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Are you kidding me?
Of Information Brokers and Sisters...
Inspired after rereading my very first post of this very "new" blog AKA The Grand Introduction...
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Maa, I did mention something about feeling like Orihara Izaya last summer and having sisters like Mairu and Kururi. I'll be blunt then, I'm nothing like Hagane-kun. I don't use words that sounds like sugar-coated. Maybe no, but that's what I sense it to be. I don't repeatedly say something that had already been said before.
I have cleared this one before and say it again. I love how a human's mind work. I love how they complicate the simplest things. I love their reactions towards the unexpected. And I love how they are easily manipulated. I don't like it when someone defies me. And I make sure they stay on their place. Know who they are.
Ah, but please don't confuse me with Akashi Seijuro. I don't expect people to follow. After all, a challenge is what makes life fun. And humans who struggle with their fate are the most entertaining~
After all, Hagane-kun reminds me of how Zwei talk.
I'm leaving that point out. Ah and to resume to my current musings.
It's not like I don't mess with people, it's just that a simple innocent act of mine, already makes them appalled by how normal I act with something so strange~
Tatoeba, my usual scissor-collecting habit. And the way how my dearly beloved Hime-sama, shifts her emotions from that of depression to ecstasy. Umfufufufu~ *chuckles* Even Cardinal-chan, is weirded out by this fact, apparently. It's my consistent ability of being unpredictable is what makes them on edge and question my sanity~
Ah, I'm straying again. Just like Orihara Izaya, I acted as somewhat of an information broker. Who said that you need to side with one party? I can twist my words and practically be 'protected' without doing anything seeing as how Izzy-chan trusts me. It's the fact how I'm able to use my resources that she can't continue without having me to provide for her. It's only the same principle as how to Xerxes Break uses his pawns. Except that in this game, and war occurring between Izzy and the Tank, I am both Break and Raven.
*laughs*
Ah, can you still keep up?
As I said, being the big sister and brother to two naughty little children can be a pain. Though, they are being molded uncharacteristically by my own strange habits.
After all, a little twist in the mind and change of view gave me control over my sisters. Children are so naive. And at the same time dark and mysterious.
I did mention, I'm going to introduce my little siblings.
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First is Nakagawa Misako. I did them a favor, making a name of their own.
Nakagawa Misao, a cheerful, easy-going girl. She doesn't stand out neither in academics nor sports. Mattaku, I don't really know what's the deal with this child. *shrug* She doesn't have the competence nor the determination. Such a simple-minded child, really. That's why I like her. So easy to manipulate~ I'm her onee-chan so it's natural that she follows my every whim and order.
Being the middle child, and not working hard enough as it is. Although, always open to new things except that those new things never improve. She'd always deal with the large blow yet her emotions never waver. She's fragile like glass. It's sad enough that she inherited my incompetence and my happy-go-luck nature. Simple as to put it, my positive side. Though I like the fact, that I may be having a kawaii little psycho.
To be honest, I think she has more friends that I'll ever have. But I mean who needs a lot of friends? If they can't even sew that conflicted part of you. It just ends to tear another part.
Moving forward...
My hated half, Sukuyuki Yui. Aggressive, authoritative, unpleasant and troublesome child, that's what she is. Cunning, sneaky, and intelligent. The opposite half of Misako. She passes with flying colors although we bad behavior, she isn't particularly liked. Mostly because of the fact, she's bossy and likes to argue. She doesn't hesitate to use force if possible. She's usually scolded for bad behavior as opposite to Misako's incompetence. I never really liked her. And I might end up strangling her. Ah, but that is a joke. After all, it would be too easy.
As the youngest child, it's funny that she doesn't get to be spoiled after all I keep her place on check. She inherited a large part of my negative and dark side. Though,I think with that personality, she might actually become successful. After all, she's not easily deluded, though still, a child is a child. So simple-minded~
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As this circle of life continues, I might harness my sisters' talents to something much more useful in the future.
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Maa, I did mention something about feeling like Orihara Izaya last summer and having sisters like Mairu and Kururi. I'll be blunt then, I'm nothing like Hagane-kun. I don't use words that sounds like sugar-coated. Maybe no, but that's what I sense it to be. I don't repeatedly say something that had already been said before.
I have cleared this one before and say it again. I love how a human's mind work. I love how they complicate the simplest things. I love their reactions towards the unexpected. And I love how they are easily manipulated. I don't like it when someone defies me. And I make sure they stay on their place. Know who they are.
Ah, but please don't confuse me with Akashi Seijuro. I don't expect people to follow. After all, a challenge is what makes life fun. And humans who struggle with their fate are the most entertaining~
After all, Hagane-kun reminds me of how Zwei talk.
I'm leaving that point out. Ah and to resume to my current musings.
It's not like I don't mess with people, it's just that a simple innocent act of mine, already makes them appalled by how normal I act with something so strange~
Tatoeba, my usual scissor-collecting habit. And the way how my dearly beloved Hime-sama, shifts her emotions from that of depression to ecstasy. Umfufufufu~ *chuckles* Even Cardinal-chan, is weirded out by this fact, apparently. It's my consistent ability of being unpredictable is what makes them on edge and question my sanity~
Ah, I'm straying again. Just like Orihara Izaya, I acted as somewhat of an information broker. Who said that you need to side with one party? I can twist my words and practically be 'protected' without doing anything seeing as how Izzy-chan trusts me. It's the fact how I'm able to use my resources that she can't continue without having me to provide for her. It's only the same principle as how to Xerxes Break uses his pawns. Except that in this game, and war occurring between Izzy and the Tank, I am both Break and Raven.
*laughs*
Ah, can you still keep up?
As I said, being the big sister and brother to two naughty little children can be a pain. Though, they are being molded uncharacteristically by my own strange habits.
After all, a little twist in the mind and change of view gave me control over my sisters. Children are so naive. And at the same time dark and mysterious.
I did mention, I'm going to introduce my little siblings.
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First is Nakagawa Misako. I did them a favor, making a name of their own.
Nakagawa Misao, a cheerful, easy-going girl. She doesn't stand out neither in academics nor sports. Mattaku, I don't really know what's the deal with this child. *shrug* She doesn't have the competence nor the determination. Such a simple-minded child, really. That's why I like her. So easy to manipulate~ I'm her onee-chan so it's natural that she follows my every whim and order.
Being the middle child, and not working hard enough as it is. Although, always open to new things except that those new things never improve. She'd always deal with the large blow yet her emotions never waver. She's fragile like glass. It's sad enough that she inherited my incompetence and my happy-go-luck nature. Simple as to put it, my positive side. Though I like the fact, that I may be having a kawaii little psycho.
To be honest, I think she has more friends that I'll ever have. But I mean who needs a lot of friends? If they can't even sew that conflicted part of you. It just ends to tear another part.
Moving forward...
My hated half, Sukuyuki Yui. Aggressive, authoritative, unpleasant and troublesome child, that's what she is. Cunning, sneaky, and intelligent. The opposite half of Misako. She passes with flying colors although we bad behavior, she isn't particularly liked. Mostly because of the fact, she's bossy and likes to argue. She doesn't hesitate to use force if possible. She's usually scolded for bad behavior as opposite to Misako's incompetence. I never really liked her. And I might end up strangling her. Ah, but that is a joke. After all, it would be too easy.
As the youngest child, it's funny that she doesn't get to be spoiled after all I keep her place on check. She inherited a large part of my negative and dark side. Though,I think with that personality, she might actually become successful. After all, she's not easily deluded, though still, a child is a child. So simple-minded~
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As this circle of life continues, I might harness my sisters' talents to something much more useful in the future.
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{ Shizuki }
"The one who weaves purpose into an architecture."
Yet again for some reason...
...I'm rereading my posts from the start.
...And I'm thinking of explanations.
...And probably some adjustments.
Ermehgerd, I'm back...
After a painstakingly long wait for our practice since the senpais are practicing for graduation, we all huddled up to the radio room.
When we arrived, I saw the Tank playing Call of Duty, and we just stayed there. //Talk about loitering//
But then I got bored, and I talked to Maxwell about Pokemon because meh imoutos ((for another story))
Leen heard about it and we talked about our pokemons and the Tank joined in. Leen said she named her pokemons, that are related to gays. Well, I do respect her and she supports homosexual people because come on people, equality! The Tank, then said, he named one of his pokemons, Spectre. ((which is another story)). While I named mine after the Generation of Miracles, just because that's why.
I just watched and listened as Princess talked to Leen about 1D and about Zayn leaving and all those sort of stuff that I didn't care. Meanwhile, Maxwell borrowed my cellphone to play Pokemon.
Conan played GTA in the radio room's computer and as usual he said he's going to sleep. Funny thing is, we always laughed when there is a bug in the game and that moment when we found out that the tank was amphibious though we learned that there's a certain force field barring from moving on because it doesn't exist. And then he slept. Mind me, I should call him Dormouse instead.
And so I took over playing. You're going to cry at the sad fact that I drive like a drunk man. Always hitting people (though I actually intend to do that), posts, walls and all sorts of stuff. I also get the car to explode, be trapped in a narrow space, or even backflip. I know I'm awesome. It usually ends that I die. The first time was when I lazily drive and always swerving because I find it fun especially on the motorcycle. The second time is I found a butcher knife though I thought it was an axe. And my mind screamed, "YUNO!" Then, I started slashing that one guy but he was able to run so I ran after him. And then because I forgot how to play GTA, the Tank and AI told me to press shift so I'd ran faster and I did that running with shift then slash, call me crazy but it was fun.
More funny thing, is that I was running after the guy with a butcher knife and at least two police cars passed by not minding a guy holding a butcher knife running after another man. After that, I started killing random people just because. Though eventually, I died because I got beaten up.
The third time is when yeah I missed the butcher knife so the AI did the cheat for me something about weapons. And this time, I exclaimed I want the chainsaw so I started running and complained that the guy wasn't fast enough even though it was supposed to since it IS a chainsaw. At first the AI was like, "Huway chainsaw?" and I told him, "Because Grell!"
And I slashed two people talking though it was funny since after doing few things, I got three stars in wanted level. Then I said, after butchering people, I wasn't wanted but after chainsawing two people, they want to arrest me.
Another moment was whenever I kill people, the ambulance would come, and I'd kill the person in it.
Sadly, Ma'am AE came, and I had the AI closed it. Well, at least she wasn't angry.
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More boring things. Timeskip to when the Tank and I switched bags. So, I told him I'd watch Hayate the Combat Butler if he agrees to switch bags with me and since he insists me on watching it, he agrees. So, I carried he's light bag and he carried my heavy laptop bag.
Then we went to this pharmaceutical store where you can buy food because I don't know. And I can't pick what to buy if cookies and cream ice cream or mango graham or milk. He said, I just need to decide. So I just get an ice cream in cone. Surprisingly, he paid for it even though I didn't ask him. Such a great guy! I'd always feel sorry since I always prank him. Well, good enough at that.
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Now, we come to flashbacks.
My mom didn't want me bringing the laptop but meh. It's mine so yeah. And she said, don't ever come to the school. Just because I brought the laptop and insisted me on going home.
True enough, when I was walking towards the school after the practice, I spotted mom with her co-teachers and caught me eating ice cream. Well, at least it's a win-win situation, I get to eat lunch and ride for free, since dad arrived. And mom did day, they can't connect to the internet. *evil smile* At least, I have an internet on my own.
I suppose, I'd start posting a lot of stuff up... If I don't ever succumb to the soft mattresses around me.
When we arrived, I saw the Tank playing Call of Duty, and we just stayed there. //Talk about loitering//
But then I got bored, and I talked to Maxwell about Pokemon because meh imoutos ((for another story))
Leen heard about it and we talked about our pokemons and the Tank joined in. Leen said she named her pokemons, that are related to gays. Well, I do respect her and she supports homosexual people because come on people, equality! The Tank, then said, he named one of his pokemons, Spectre. ((which is another story)). While I named mine after the Generation of Miracles, just because that's why.
I just watched and listened as Princess talked to Leen about 1D and about Zayn leaving and all those sort of stuff that I didn't care. Meanwhile, Maxwell borrowed my cellphone to play Pokemon.
Conan played GTA in the radio room's computer and as usual he said he's going to sleep. Funny thing is, we always laughed when there is a bug in the game and that moment when we found out that the tank was amphibious though we learned that there's a certain force field barring from moving on because it doesn't exist. And then he slept. Mind me, I should call him Dormouse instead.
And so I took over playing. You're going to cry at the sad fact that I drive like a drunk man. Always hitting people (though I actually intend to do that), posts, walls and all sorts of stuff. I also get the car to explode, be trapped in a narrow space, or even backflip. I know I'm awesome. It usually ends that I die. The first time was when I lazily drive and always swerving because I find it fun especially on the motorcycle. The second time is I found a butcher knife though I thought it was an axe. And my mind screamed, "YUNO!" Then, I started slashing that one guy but he was able to run so I ran after him. And then because I forgot how to play GTA, the Tank and AI told me to press shift so I'd ran faster and I did that running with shift then slash, call me crazy but it was fun.
More funny thing, is that I was running after the guy with a butcher knife and at least two police cars passed by not minding a guy holding a butcher knife running after another man. After that, I started killing random people just because. Though eventually, I died because I got beaten up.
The third time is when yeah I missed the butcher knife so the AI did the cheat for me something about weapons. And this time, I exclaimed I want the chainsaw so I started running and complained that the guy wasn't fast enough even though it was supposed to since it IS a chainsaw. At first the AI was like, "Huway chainsaw?" and I told him, "Because Grell!"
And I slashed two people talking though it was funny since after doing few things, I got three stars in wanted level. Then I said, after butchering people, I wasn't wanted but after chainsawing two people, they want to arrest me.
Another moment was whenever I kill people, the ambulance would come, and I'd kill the person in it.
Sadly, Ma'am AE came, and I had the AI closed it. Well, at least she wasn't angry.
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More boring things. Timeskip to when the Tank and I switched bags. So, I told him I'd watch Hayate the Combat Butler if he agrees to switch bags with me and since he insists me on watching it, he agrees. So, I carried he's light bag and he carried my heavy laptop bag.
Then we went to this pharmaceutical store where you can buy food because I don't know. And I can't pick what to buy if cookies and cream ice cream or mango graham or milk. He said, I just need to decide. So I just get an ice cream in cone. Surprisingly, he paid for it even though I didn't ask him. Such a great guy! I'd always feel sorry since I always prank him. Well, good enough at that.
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Now, we come to flashbacks.
My mom didn't want me bringing the laptop but meh. It's mine so yeah. And she said, don't ever come to the school. Just because I brought the laptop and insisted me on going home.
True enough, when I was walking towards the school after the practice, I spotted mom with her co-teachers and caught me eating ice cream. Well, at least it's a win-win situation, I get to eat lunch and ride for free, since dad arrived. And mom did day, they can't connect to the internet. *evil smile* At least, I have an internet on my own.
I suppose, I'd start posting a lot of stuff up... If I don't ever succumb to the soft mattresses around me.
++ Shiai ++
Ten Reasons Overview
I. I think I'm going to get some sleep.
II. On second thought, I think that the recognition shall be very boring.
III. I'll just watch Uta no Prince-sama.
IV. Maybe, I'll become inspired to watch Ao Haru Ride since Izzy insists too much on it.
V. I have been busy on the course by the end of the school year that's why Allen has more posts.
VI. I deleted my first blog though I think I still have the previous posts.
VII. I'll finally make profiles.
VIII. I'm going to buy another scissor. Red or black? Maybe a cutter too...
IX. I can ditch appointments.
X. No one really needs me.
II. On second thought, I think that the recognition shall be very boring.
III. I'll just watch Uta no Prince-sama.
IV. Maybe, I'll become inspired to watch Ao Haru Ride since Izzy insists too much on it.
V. I have been busy on the course by the end of the school year that's why Allen has more posts.
VI. I deleted my first blog though I think I still have the previous posts.
VII. I'll finally make profiles.
VIII. I'm going to buy another scissor. Red or black? Maybe a cutter too...
IX. I can ditch appointments.
X. No one really needs me.
Dream Series (5): Doki Doki Hearts //Forlorn Hope//
Ah, it's one of those times.
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To be honest, Kujike's depressing mood is seeping into my mind that I have to read love stories so that my reputation as the love princess is maintained. Yet, all I see are sadness and grayness. No longer the rainbows and sunshine are ever at the end of a story.
Even so, caring for other people's relationship can be hard. After all, you'll yearn for someone to love you. But I can't get over it no matter what. And it's just because of a simple bastard that I can't get over with just because of my overwhelming curiosity over people's relationships.
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"That" dream left a bad imprint of how I view love at its finest.
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The scenes were all too sudden. The first I was in the classroom and the next I'm pulled to his.
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He was holding my hand. It's in fact not needed as our classroom's are just neighbors. Only the stairs separating the two area.
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Yet what is with the sudden feeling of calmness and the the feeling of being needed and relied on.
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I don't know what was happening but I was hugging him like a little brother. Casually brushing his hair like I'd do when I become the overly affectionate onee-san to my imouto.
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It doesn't help me to understand the situation when Ma'am E (= equation), our Math teacher is teaching something about cooking to their class.
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My mind is boggled on why am I stressing over the fact on how two girls who were supposed to display some kind of technique on washing marshmallows is beyond my comprehension.
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The first one would wash it in one basin repeatedly and then it would appear saggy and kind of gooey.
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The other one would do just was it with water and it'll look plumper than before.
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It doesn't even make sense.
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It occurred to me that it may be an experiment for Consumer Chemistry and Ma'am E was acting as overseer since Math and Science are basically connected.
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So, what's the point of acting lovey-dovey with him?
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I stood up and went to go back to my classroom.
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He didn't let go and instead followed me.
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Yet the dream feels... kind of sad.
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When I woke up, I had the sense of why would I even see him in one of my unconscious dreams where I let my mind freely take me? I, then, realized that the fact he'd never notice m was true. I mean, people did say when you dream of something, the opposite actually happens. I don't have the place to fight for attention as we don't communicate with each other as if we knew the other back then. During my middle school life, everything changes. Friends become strangers. Although, I can perfectly say that... they were strangers in the first place.
Dream Series (4): Subject Switched
I think for the longest possible time. The second time I fell asleep in class.
For some reason, someone woke me up only to find everyone changing clothes like those people who dance salsa and tango. Those kind of dresses that need to show off skin and are short for women and the usual for men.
When I woke up, the familiar surroundings of radio room hit my senses. But why are we in the radio room? And more importantly why are we gathering here if it was for PE?
I realized, I also needed to get going.
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But where would I get the clothes?
And as if by magic, I was already wearing them... except I was wearing my PE uniform as another layer of clothing.
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And just as suddenly, Rence barged into the room just as I was sitting on the table. I think he said somewhere along the lines,"...Ma'am Nel won't be coming."
And I was like huh, I mean she is our Social Studies teacher.
But the weird part is our supposed to be Physical Education teacher was strolling off to her advisory class saying that she wasn't handling our class.
So, does that mean Ma'am Nel was our PE teacher now?
For some reason, someone woke me up only to find everyone changing clothes like those people who dance salsa and tango. Those kind of dresses that need to show off skin and are short for women and the usual for men.
When I woke up, the familiar surroundings of radio room hit my senses. But why are we in the radio room? And more importantly why are we gathering here if it was for PE?
I realized, I also needed to get going.
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But where would I get the clothes?
And as if by magic, I was already wearing them... except I was wearing my PE uniform as another layer of clothing.
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And just as suddenly, Rence barged into the room just as I was sitting on the table. I think he said somewhere along the lines,"...Ma'am Nel won't be coming."
And I was like huh, I mean she is our Social Studies teacher.
But the weird part is our supposed to be Physical Education teacher was strolling off to her advisory class saying that she wasn't handling our class.
So, does that mean Ma'am Nel was our PE teacher now?
Intros and Omake
And it's the end. Not really, it's the fact that all three were connected in one whole dream. Pretty deranged. And weird. And totally nonsense. The first one was thoroughly inspired that's why it's the only one that has the longest post. And I fear that I only have two more hours left to dilly-dally in the computer and internet. I managed to deceive my father yet again with my sleeping skills. ヾ(*ΦωΦ)ﾉ /I remember Kano, my love./
Of course, datte, when it comes to senses and skills, I'm the most talented. I'm the senpai of the seven-colored prismesses. Was it a good one? ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡~)
Tsukiko-senpai, you really didn't have to imitate Izuki-senpai. 눈_눈 The whole team are already pissed at him.
Maa, can't you have a little fun? What was your name again? Shinju, was it? (ల◕ั˘๐◕ั˘ల) I thought Shinri was erasing data.
⋋░ ✿ ⁰ o ⁰ ✿ ░⋌ We just formed! *pats hard in the back repeatedly* Of course, we aren't getting replaced. Hii-chan secured us. (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧ After all, we are her beloved children. (▽◕ ᴥ ◕▽)
Hmm, and one of her beloved children should keep her mouth shout.
HII-CHAN?! ‧˚₊*̥(∗*⁰͈꒨⁰͈)‧˚₊*̥
Well, I'll be taking after Shuuya-senpai as her assistant. Even though I'm not as heartless as anyone think I am, I'm still strict, and by the next school year, I expect that you must be able to reach the standards or severe punishment shall be laid.
Hai!
Ah... eto... *rubs back of the neck* So, there's, Hiiro-chan and Shinju-chan. /I forgot I still need to make profiles/ ●﹏●
I still need to post at least two more dream series before I forget them... Oh, and also Shinri's announcement about deleting, merging, and replacing. Have a good day! ((┌|o^▽^o|┘))♪
What's with the emoticons? Σ（￣□￣；）
Of course, datte, when it comes to senses and skills, I'm the most talented. I'm the senpai of the seven-colored prismesses. Was it a good one? ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡~)
Tsukiko-senpai, you really didn't have to imitate Izuki-senpai. 눈_눈 The whole team are already pissed at him.
Maa, can't you have a little fun? What was your name again? Shinju, was it? (ల◕ั˘๐◕ั˘ల) I thought Shinri was erasing data.
⋋░ ✿ ⁰ o ⁰ ✿ ░⋌ We just formed! *pats hard in the back repeatedly* Of course, we aren't getting replaced. Hii-chan secured us. (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧ After all, we are her beloved children. (▽◕ ᴥ ◕▽)
Hmm, and one of her beloved children should keep her mouth shout.
HII-CHAN?! ‧˚₊*̥(∗*⁰͈꒨⁰͈)‧˚₊*̥
Well, I'll be taking after Shuuya-senpai as her assistant. Even though I'm not as heartless as anyone think I am, I'm still strict, and by the next school year, I expect that you must be able to reach the standards or severe punishment shall be laid.
Hai!
Ah... eto... *rubs back of the neck* So, there's, Hiiro-chan and Shinju-chan. /I forgot I still need to make profiles/ ●﹏●
I still need to post at least two more dream series before I forget them... Oh, and also Shinri's announcement about deleting, merging, and replacing. Have a good day! ((┌|o^▽^o|┘))♪
What's with the emoticons? Σ（￣□￣；）
#AkaProperty Hiiro-san
#Shinju-obake
#Misa-chan is back
#Tsukiko's ninja skillz
#Kangae's deadline is an hour
Dream Series (3): Half-Life or Death Carnival
...Treading forward...
I suddenly woke up in a sort-of underground passage with water reaching by my ankles. How did I know? I really don't know. Considering the fact that when I woke up, I found out that I can't move my lover body so I have to push my upper body to manage its way by crawling.
The fact that it reminded me a lot of Tomb Raider that I used to play in the computer even though I don't seriously get the story and the instructions on how to jump, swim and so-on, so forth. The ceiling is just ceiling yet water seems to come from it like in those caves.
It didn't help that the atmosphere was tense that it reminded me of Half-Life and all those aliens that'll jump out from the sidelines.
I was able to push forward but manage to scramble back when I saw armed soldiers. There's something ominous about them that I felt that if ever I was spotted I'd be caught or worse dead. This reminded me of that part in The Sandman where I have to go unnoticed by the soldiers.
By then, to the best of my abilities, stalked silently and hid behind another pillar. There I saw somewhat akin to a large stadium like the Colosseum. It more of reminded me of the bus station and bleachers.
When I walked towards it, I felt like I'm entering a door like in the airport. And when I arrived the only seat that was free was atop a unicorn. Like the ponies you'd see in a merry-go-round carousel. I was hesitant but it seemed that I have no other choice. To my side, a familiar face struck upon me.
It was none other than... a former elementary classmate of mine. Jessa. Tall. Fair complexion. Wavy shoulder-length hair. Silent. Most likely a kuudere. And also the daughter of our Values Education teacher. She waved at me while I waved back awkwardly.
But then to the right, in front of me... I saw... Mary and Marienie.
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All those sudden realizations brought me back to reality. With a face that screamed, "WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED?!"
I suddenly woke up in a sort-of underground passage with water reaching by my ankles. How did I know? I really don't know. Considering the fact that when I woke up, I found out that I can't move my lover body so I have to push my upper body to manage its way by crawling.
The fact that it reminded me a lot of Tomb Raider that I used to play in the computer even though I don't seriously get the story and the instructions on how to jump, swim and so-on, so forth. The ceiling is just ceiling yet water seems to come from it like in those caves.
It didn't help that the atmosphere was tense that it reminded me of Half-Life and all those aliens that'll jump out from the sidelines.
I was able to push forward but manage to scramble back when I saw armed soldiers. There's something ominous about them that I felt that if ever I was spotted I'd be caught or worse dead. This reminded me of that part in The Sandman where I have to go unnoticed by the soldiers.
By then, to the best of my abilities, stalked silently and hid behind another pillar. There I saw somewhat akin to a large stadium like the Colosseum. It more of reminded me of the bus station and bleachers.
When I walked towards it, I felt like I'm entering a door like in the airport. And when I arrived the only seat that was free was atop a unicorn. Like the ponies you'd see in a merry-go-round carousel. I was hesitant but it seemed that I have no other choice. To my side, a familiar face struck upon me.
It was none other than... a former elementary classmate of mine. Jessa. Tall. Fair complexion. Wavy shoulder-length hair. Silent. Most likely a kuudere. And also the daughter of our Values Education teacher. She waved at me while I waved back awkwardly.
But then to the right, in front of me... I saw... Mary and Marienie.
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All those sudden realizations brought me back to reality. With a face that screamed, "WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED?!"
Dream Series (2): Because Boys Buying Bags Are Fab
Honestly, the title was impromptu though I never imagined that it'd almost be an alliteration.
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Continuing, my dream from there forward turned out suddenly into the time where I saw Emile and Rence in one of those handicrafts shop you'd see in the market.
They were just leaving the shop when I ran after them. What they both bought were bags except they looked liked especially for girls.
Rence has a pink messenger bag with all those girly stuff. It's too bright for me. ( ꒪Д꒪)ノ
While Emile's, is a violet hand purse wrapped up like those abaca fibers, I think they're called sinamay or something?
I asked him to give me the sinamay (?) (which I don't recall at that time /because I still searched for the right term/ and I called wrapper or something like that) but instead he gave me the plastic.
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Nothing happened much but it must have been a trigger since I teased Rence about his crush and stuff but I still don't actually believe Emile would be there.
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Continuing, my dream from there forward turned out suddenly into the time where I saw Emile and Rence in one of those handicrafts shop you'd see in the market.
They were just leaving the shop when I ran after them. What they both bought were bags except they looked liked especially for girls.
Rence has a pink messenger bag with all those girly stuff. It's too bright for me. ( ꒪Д꒪)ノ
While Emile's, is a violet hand purse wrapped up like those abaca fibers, I think they're called sinamay or something?
I asked him to give me the sinamay (?) (which I don't recall at that time /because I still searched for the right term/ and I called wrapper or something like that) but instead he gave me the plastic.
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Nothing happened much but it must have been a trigger since I teased Rence about his crush and stuff but I still don't actually believe Emile would be there.
Sunday, March 29, 2015
I think I'm gonna continue now even though I'm supposed to be sleeping to get ready for tomorrow's recognition practice not that I care. I'd rather much ditch it and get some sleep and start my lazy summer but seems like my parents are excited for it since finally I'm going to go up the stage for the end of my middle school life.
((Aseri))
Note Taken
So, it wasn't two hours, more like over 9 hours.
Because, Mire-chan coaxed me into sleeping. //Why are you using 3rd person?//
And I slept all throughout the day.
I just woke up recently.
And the first thing I was ordered was to buy a bottle of soft drinks which wasn't nice.
I just woke up.
*exasperated sigh*
Sleeping is nicer.
Though I got distracted by the fact, I chatted with the AI and also watching anime episodes that I downloaded this early morning.
And I have to take a bath.
Then, I played a game I can't finish because I'm not in the mood for jump scares.
And my internet goes by slowly.
= =
What is life?
And by then, I forgot everything and slept all afternoon.
It'salmost already 10 PM.
Because, Mire-chan coaxed me into sleeping. //Why are you using 3rd person?//
And I slept all throughout the day.
I just woke up recently.
And the first thing I was ordered was to buy a bottle of soft drinks which wasn't nice.
I just woke up.
*exasperated sigh*
Sleeping is nicer.
Though I got distracted by the fact, I chatted with the AI and also watching anime episodes that I downloaded this early morning.
And I have to take a bath.
Then, I played a game I can't finish because I'm not in the mood for jump scares.
And my internet goes by slowly.
= =
What is life?
And by then, I forgot everything and slept all afternoon.
It's
Annoying Sideline:
As much as I wanted to continue, it's almost 6:00 AM and we have to go to church at 7:00 AM. Meaning, I'll roughly get an hour to sleep not that it matters but my mom would nag me for it. Soooo, I'm ending my little blog rant for now but I'll be back after two hours or so.
Maa, tsukarete...
Maa, tsukarete...
Dream Series (1): Wrong People, Wrong Time
It started out on a sunny day.
Just across the street was a small hedge with little bushes that separates two lanes. Just across from it are the places that surround the city hall as well as the city library that my classmates used to hang around. Barely at its side are some building I haven't associated with just to the right of it is...
Yes! It is the post office! The ones where we use to go.
But something's bothering about that scene... It's the part where we have to cross the hedge were the bushes are not present. It's embarrassing crossing over when you're wearing the school uniform of the one you attended not far from the place. Not also speaking that has quite a reputation across the city.
It is when the day had come when I go alone but... it's different. When Emile is not present, I'd usually walk around it like a decent person but being with him just ignites this silly person inside me that doesn't give a when crossing a street.
This is the part where it all changes...
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One step.
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Two steps.
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Three steps.
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Crossed the hedge.
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Three steps.
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Two steps.
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One step.
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*whistle*
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A sound of a whistle breaks my trance and shook me back to reality. A lady officer in brown gave me a yellow ticket as a warning... for jaywalking.
When I realized the situation, I never thought once in my life that I'd be breaking traffic and pedestrian rules that I have to be ticketed by an officer let alone caught in the act.
But it's completely different. Beside me was Joseph, who had been given a yellow and red ticket. Also... for jaywalking. He's that tall, white guy who studied in a Chinese Catholic school. That guy who had been popular ever since summer classes began in freshman year. That guy who in anime you can call someone the school's heartthrob though I never really understood what's good about him (no offense of course). I mean he didn't really strike me as good-looking. I mean he's like one of those typical guys that I don't even understand why people make so much fuss about it. And my impression of him is that, he's got a screw loose in his head, I admit.
Other than that, WHY IS HE WITH ME?! WHAT IS THE REASON FOR JAYWALKING?!
Honestly, I had expected Emile to be with me for all those things he have done in his life for the simple fact of YOLO, which we had used a term for doing something like a gamble or something that you'd usually do once that you'll never regret doing again.
Other than my internal thoughts, the scenery had changed into the one of the city square. I was standing not in front of the post office but of a bank. Which has a pedestrian lane across from it that connects to a church.
Joseph then walks without a care in the world with the Tank. My mind went blank for that. Why is Joseph with the Tank? And why are they going to the mall?
This is simply something not my mind can comprehend.
//dream series end (1)
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I talked about this with Emile, and ever since then when we walk to the post office, he'd remind me of that memory of how I was ticketed when I was with Joseph which was obviously should've been Emile. My mind must be playing tricks on me.
Just across the street was a small hedge with little bushes that separates two lanes. Just across from it are the places that surround the city hall as well as the city library that my classmates used to hang around. Barely at its side are some building I haven't associated with just to the right of it is...
Yes! It is the post office! The ones where we use to go.
But something's bothering about that scene... It's the part where we have to cross the hedge were the bushes are not present. It's embarrassing crossing over when you're wearing the school uniform of the one you attended not far from the place. Not also speaking that has quite a reputation across the city.
It is when the day had come when I go alone but... it's different. When Emile is not present, I'd usually walk around it like a decent person but being with him just ignites this silly person inside me that doesn't give a when crossing a street.
This is the part where it all changes...
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One step.
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Two steps.
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Three steps.
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Crossed the hedge.
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Three steps.
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Two steps.
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One step.
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*whistle*
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A sound of a whistle breaks my trance and shook me back to reality. A lady officer in brown gave me a yellow ticket as a warning... for jaywalking.
When I realized the situation, I never thought once in my life that I'd be breaking traffic and pedestrian rules that I have to be ticketed by an officer let alone caught in the act.
But it's completely different. Beside me was Joseph, who had been given a yellow and red ticket. Also... for jaywalking. He's that tall, white guy who studied in a Chinese Catholic school. That guy who had been popular ever since summer classes began in freshman year. That guy who in anime you can call someone the school's heartthrob though I never really understood what's good about him (no offense of course). I mean he didn't really strike me as good-looking. I mean he's like one of those typical guys that I don't even understand why people make so much fuss about it. And my impression of him is that, he's got a screw loose in his head, I admit.
Other than that, WHY IS HE WITH ME?! WHAT IS THE REASON FOR JAYWALKING?!
Honestly, I had expected Emile to be with me for all those things he have done in his life for the simple fact of YOLO, which we had used a term for doing something like a gamble or something that you'd usually do once that you'll never regret doing again.
Other than my internal thoughts, the scenery had changed into the one of the city square. I was standing not in front of the post office but of a bank. Which has a pedestrian lane across from it that connects to a church.
Joseph then walks without a care in the world with the Tank. My mind went blank for that. Why is Joseph with the Tank? And why are they going to the mall?
This is simply something not my mind can comprehend.
//dream series end (1)
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I talked about this with Emile, and ever since then when we walk to the post office, he'd remind me of that memory of how I was ticketed when I was with Joseph which was obviously should've been Emile. My mind must be playing tricks on me.
A Little on the Side Note:
I think I'm gonna pause for the throw back which happened last year and I'll be viewing more specifically on what happened this past week and some days before then. Also, being Kangae, I'm not only an otaku but I'm also a story teller.
Motivated at 3:00 AM
Not exactly 3:00 AM, I mean it's 3:30 when I started typing this post by I feel a little motivated to type now. To be honest, school was exasperating and that's the least amount of compliment I can get out of myself after that one drastically whole year that by now I don't feel to move around and hang-out far away from the vicinity of my house. Which is why for this past week, I ditched all of my appointments simply because I'm tired of doing all of those things.
Putting it in thought, this was actually the first time I ever feel like I want to do household chores such as cooking, laundry, cleaning, folding clothes, and all sorts of stuff that housewives and mothers do. Something like a housekeeper of sort.
I don't know if I'm suffering some kind of depression that I'm stressing over being a clean and neat freak or if I really have an obsessive-compulsive disorder is beyond my thought. It's probably because I realized that I still have two months of free time and I started to realized that by then, I was practically bored all the time, yet I didn't have the heart to constantly do things that most people in the world have done.
It's not like I'm the best, I haven't even done my best yet, I haven't even explored my special and unique ability. To put it simply, I'm most likely an ordinary player, I haven't yet explored my talents in-depth nor have I tried to hone them over the past times.
I have a lot of time to practice and yet my body is satisfied of doing the normal things that normal people can do, I don't use the time to practice and exercise my skills for better use in the future or is it the possibility that I lost the interest of meaning in living?
Literally, I'm living. Figuratively, I don't think so. I'm not enjoying what's supposed to be life to be as of the present nor I'm hating it. My terms in life are so-so that I'm not someone to be dealt with or worry about.
I haven't found 'that' interesting part of my life because honestly, I'm getting tired with my daily life. I haven't even gone through to work my way above and yet I'm complaining. Maybe, I should look more for it or most likely, I would be happier if it just hits me in the head because I'm simply to blind to see it.
So, I took a quiz if about my emotions and according to my results I'm 32% ... emotionally stable. I can't distinguish a person's emotion and talk to them yet I question my emotions. I know what I'm feeling yet I can't understand it. And especially when I have a lot in my mind, I tend to switch my emotion quickly.
I won't be lying if I'm something like that. I have my rapid mood swings and display of unnecessary behavior just because I'm the way I am. For now, I have learned to hold back myself, something that I don't enjoy because I have to restrain from punching an annoying guy but it's funny when you see them confused like lost puppies.
I pity this post, for having all of my depressing thoughts clouding.
Putting it in thought, this was actually the first time I ever feel like I want to do household chores such as cooking, laundry, cleaning, folding clothes, and all sorts of stuff that housewives and mothers do. Something like a housekeeper of sort.
I don't know if I'm suffering some kind of depression that I'm stressing over being a clean and neat freak or if I really have an obsessive-compulsive disorder is beyond my thought. It's probably because I realized that I still have two months of free time and I started to realized that by then, I was practically bored all the time, yet I didn't have the heart to constantly do things that most people in the world have done.
It's not like I'm the best, I haven't even done my best yet, I haven't even explored my special and unique ability. To put it simply, I'm most likely an ordinary player, I haven't yet explored my talents in-depth nor have I tried to hone them over the past times.
I have a lot of time to practice and yet my body is satisfied of doing the normal things that normal people can do, I don't use the time to practice and exercise my skills for better use in the future or is it the possibility that I lost the interest of meaning in living?
Literally, I'm living. Figuratively, I don't think so. I'm not enjoying what's supposed to be life to be as of the present nor I'm hating it. My terms in life are so-so that I'm not someone to be dealt with or worry about.
I haven't found 'that' interesting part of my life because honestly, I'm getting tired with my daily life. I haven't even gone through to work my way above and yet I'm complaining. Maybe, I should look more for it or most likely, I would be happier if it just hits me in the head because I'm simply to blind to see it.
So, I took a quiz if about my emotions and according to my results I'm 32% ... emotionally stable. I can't distinguish a person's emotion and talk to them yet I question my emotions. I know what I'm feeling yet I can't understand it. And especially when I have a lot in my mind, I tend to switch my emotion quickly.
I won't be lying if I'm something like that. I have my rapid mood swings and display of unnecessary behavior just because I'm the way I am. For now, I have learned to hold back myself, something that I don't enjoy because I have to restrain from punching an annoying guy but it's funny when you see them confused like lost puppies.
I pity this post, for having all of my depressing thoughts clouding.
_Kujike_
My inner thoughts and ramblings that I have mulled over just because I feel depressed yet again were replaced by my temporary therapy of happiness by placing pointless useless stories that would only mean in a short time yet bound to break my internal organ even more by the harsh truth being slapped in my face as this is reality and nothing like the petty silly dreams that I think of that would steal me away from my misfortune like some overly used cliche which means nothing but thoroughly overused yet completely insignificant and grammatically redundant if put into simple words...
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In short, I just made a kernel sentence into a long one by putting modifiers that sensei taught us even though I know they don't mean anything at all.
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In short, I just made a kernel sentence into a long one by putting modifiers that sensei taught us even though I know they don't mean anything at all.
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| Congratulations, self. |
((Aseri))
Having...
Having caught by your mother once... is a bad thing...
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Having caught twice is certainly not a good thing.
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Having typed the first two sentences did not really make any meaning.
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Having them written in that order doesn't make out anything.
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Having caught by your father is multiple times than your mother seeing what you're up to wandering.
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Having the computer in front isn't so bad and you'll realized all those constant nagging and annoying feelings are nothing.
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Having caught twice is certainly not a good thing.
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Having typed the first two sentences did not really make any meaning.
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Having them written in that order doesn't make out anything.
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Having caught by your father is multiple times than your mother seeing what you're up to wandering.
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Having the computer in front isn't so bad and you'll realized all those constant nagging and annoying feelings are nothing.
_Kujike_
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Of Schedules, Meeting, and Graduation
Of Schedules...
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There are certain people who I'm not going to mention still can't decide when they will give us our treat. And we can't possibly be all together since we have different appointments so it's a hassle.
Of Meetings...
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I'm supposed to attend a meeting about our class outing tomorrow. It's at 9 AM but my butte is too lazy to move. And my headache is coming back.
Of Graduation...
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My mom being a kindergarten teacher is going to attend the graduation rites of the whole preparatory batch so yeah. And my sister is participating in the recognition. And I'm totally free.
And this will be the last post I can do for this morning.
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There are certain people who I'm not going to mention still can't decide when they will give us our treat. And we can't possibly be all together since we have different appointments so it's a hassle.
Of Meetings...
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I'm supposed to attend a meeting about our class outing tomorrow. It's at 9 AM but my butte is too lazy to move. And my headache is coming back.
Of Graduation...
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My mom being a kindergarten teacher is going to attend the graduation rites of the whole preparatory batch so yeah. And my sister is participating in the recognition. And I'm totally free.
And this will be the last post I can do for this morning.
Payback Time: 12-5-13
I dunno if Allen still remembers this date.
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This was the first time, Allen and I had done a prank on the AI, I mean he is pretty horrible...both men and women...
There was an upcoming radio broadcasting competition and the AI being thealmost perfect sadistic bastard most wonderful and skilled technical there is. *notice the sarcasm* But you gotta admit, he DOES have talent. He was supposed to practice along with the other members. While Allen and I being the loyal members of a random troupe of people ones left behind by the wonderful members of the broadcasting team... (Is it just me or you're being more sarcastic than before?") Shut up. You're interrupting me.
As I was saying, well, we were bored out of wits and decided it's payback time. I mean he's a horrible influence on my physical, mental, emotional, social, and psychological health. It is a simple prank. We just hid his bag inside one of the lockers, easy. Then, I had Allen check up on them if they are leaving yet.
There's this one time he said they're coming out and we scrambled for life and hid by the random corners of the classroom. Well, they weren't so we started to write something in the blackboard for the AI and we'll just calmly leave but waiting like that is boring. However, we thought they were coming now so we scramble again because we're paranoid, ya know. It's almost 6 at that time and we don't want to fail our perfectly impromptu intricate plan.
By this time, I threw his bag in the broom box and we both hid our bags in the locker, I mean if we are in the room and the AI's bag is missing, of course, we would be easily captured. Especially at that time, I can feel the adrenaline and blood rush like in those movies where someone was trying to catch you and you were hiding. Since, we were out of options where to hide since their coming is unexpected, we both hid in the comfort room with the door a little opened and a mirror beside the room. (We have a mirror that directly shows the center of the room) We waited... until... bam! The AI was raging from not being able to find his bag.
I don't remember if we were holding back our laughs or something but I know we were trembling for excitement. I mean, we were inside the comfort room and we can hear his enraged shouts. By the time we went out, because we don't know if he found his bag yet. We saw him fish out his bag in the broom box. Our broom box was neat and it's only the top, of course, the bag was fine. At that time, I can feel myself shaking like I'm about to burst out from laughing, to be honest, my mind is messed up because I don't remember which locker, I hid my own stuff.
Rence was there with him and he didn't actually pay much attention but acknowledged our presence since he was kind of helping the AI. They both didn't actually thought we both came out of the comfort room. After that, the usual routine going home. He really didn't blame us since he didn't know.
I don't remember but I think I said to him, that Allen and I had done a prank on him but he doesn't remember so it was funny. I mean he isn't the type to remember things.
Maa, isn't that dandy? It's been a year and three months since then.
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This was the first time, Allen and I had done a prank on the AI, I mean he is pretty horrible...both men and women...
There was an upcoming radio broadcasting competition and the AI being the
As I was saying, well, we were bored out of wits and decided it's payback time. I mean he's a horrible influence on my physical, mental, emotional, social, and psychological health. It is a simple prank. We just hid his bag inside one of the lockers, easy. Then, I had Allen check up on them if they are leaving yet.
There's this one time he said they're coming out and we scrambled for life and hid by the random corners of the classroom. Well, they weren't so we started to write something in the blackboard for the AI and we'll just calmly leave but waiting like that is boring. However, we thought they were coming now so we scramble again because we're paranoid, ya know. It's almost 6 at that time and we don't want to fail our perfectly impromptu intricate plan.
By this time, I threw his bag in the broom box and we both hid our bags in the locker, I mean if we are in the room and the AI's bag is missing, of course, we would be easily captured. Especially at that time, I can feel the adrenaline and blood rush like in those movies where someone was trying to catch you and you were hiding. Since, we were out of options where to hide since their coming is unexpected, we both hid in the comfort room with the door a little opened and a mirror beside the room. (We have a mirror that directly shows the center of the room) We waited... until... bam! The AI was raging from not being able to find his bag.
I don't remember if we were holding back our laughs or something but I know we were trembling for excitement. I mean, we were inside the comfort room and we can hear his enraged shouts. By the time we went out, because we don't know if he found his bag yet. We saw him fish out his bag in the broom box. Our broom box was neat and it's only the top, of course, the bag was fine. At that time, I can feel myself shaking like I'm about to burst out from laughing, to be honest, my mind is messed up because I don't remember which locker, I hid my own stuff.
Rence was there with him and he didn't actually pay much attention but acknowledged our presence since he was kind of helping the AI. They both didn't actually thought we both came out of the comfort room. After that, the usual routine going home. He really didn't blame us since he didn't know.
I don't remember but I think I said to him, that Allen and I had done a prank on him but he doesn't remember so it was funny. I mean he isn't the type to remember things.
Maa, isn't that dandy? It's been a year and three months since then.
(( Hanako ))
[[ Kazeko ]]
Early Morning Advance
*silence*
*indiscreet coughing*
*slight tapping of the keyboard*
The sun has not risen up to the horizon yet for the people in the household to see but it was evident that it was already morning by the notable blue sky seen by the window though it was lightly obscured by the curtains.
It was unusual for the the head of the household to be waking up at such early hour unless it was a school day. Summer is already by the students' back that's why there's no need to be haste during a free day.
Even so, a lady of the household should not be startled by the unfolded strings of events. A life is filled with peculiarity at every corner, and we are to accept and understand the situation in order to feel the atmosphere of a certain event.
("Alice-chan, why don't you get some sleep?")
Hiro-san, please do not worry for I am perfectly fine.
("*sigh* A lady such as yourself do not need to rush on things. Hush and let sleep comfort you.")
But-- Alright. *goes to sleep*
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It's 5:00 AM in the morning, and I'm seriously bored and hungry. I mean, ugh, I almost finished watching the latest episode of the anime that I'm currently watching. And why is my fatheralive awake at 5?! He only wakes up at 5 during school days. So I'm wondering... Here I am bored of my wits, maybe do a little posting and stuff... Yeah, maybe that's the only thing to do I suppose.
*indiscreet coughing*
*slight tapping of the keyboard*
The sun has not risen up to the horizon yet for the people in the household to see but it was evident that it was already morning by the notable blue sky seen by the window though it was lightly obscured by the curtains.
It was unusual for the the head of the household to be waking up at such early hour unless it was a school day. Summer is already by the students' back that's why there's no need to be haste during a free day.
Even so, a lady of the household should not be startled by the unfolded strings of events. A life is filled with peculiarity at every corner, and we are to accept and understand the situation in order to feel the atmosphere of a certain event.
("Alice-chan, why don't you get some sleep?")
Hiro-san, please do not worry for I am perfectly fine.
("*sigh* A lady such as yourself do not need to rush on things. Hush and let sleep comfort you.")
But-- Alright. *goes to sleep*
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It's 5:00 AM in the morning, and I'm seriously bored and hungry. I mean, ugh, I almost finished watching the latest episode of the anime that I'm currently watching. And why is my father
~Alice~
>Hiro<
+ Hoshi +
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