Awkward Former Classmate Walk

Again, yesterday, since I was a part of an organization which includes some military stuff, I went home a little late because of the orientation. I felt awkward to be wth my classmates because most of us in the class whom participated in the said organization are females.

Hard to believe, right?

During the orientation, I completely felt non-existent. I mean, there they are all huddled up together and there I was sitting forever alone.They probably didn't care that I even existed.

*sigh*

To them, for these past few days, I never felt that they knew I was there. I love being alone. I hate being alone. I hate being lonely. I don't really feel lonely. I have so many contradictions in life that are very confusing... After all there are two sides---positive and negative... And there's neutral and balanced.....

...

I'm steering off-topic again.

Soooo, anyway, while we were still inside the premises of the campus, a former classmate of mine, MJ... it's his nickname though I really call him by his second name. So yeah, he talked to me for a bit until it became a lengthy conversation. Stuff like, I was very small, he can't even feel that it was me. That he doesn't see me often. Rebuttal, please. I rarely left our classroom, I only leave during the whole duration of the class schedule unless it's lunch. That's the only time I leave the classroom.

I was trying to think of stuff to talk about since, 1) We aren't really that close anymore 2) It would be awkward. And because of that we both walked out of school together.

And nobody cares from my classmates. They really are heartless freaks. I want to laugh at their petty ideals and actions.

Shizuki-senpai pls---

So, I was saying while we were walking, another guy, probably his classmate but I'm sure it was his friend from the way they casually talk. It's really awkward when you feel like the third-wheel. And MJ (it feels weird calling him like that) introduces me to his friend (I just don't know why though...) and he asks if the guy knew who I am. And they began to talk to each other and I was like *awkward penguin* becase they keep on discussing things on what my name was.

Poor me.

Though, I felt a little light-hearted because at least someone that I never spend much time with still believes in me. (*¬*)

And then, he yells to someone a little farther away in front of us. I realized that it was another former classmate of ours.

She was surprised and MJ teased her on not remembering who am I. And she was like, "No, wait. I didn't heard you."

Since we are near the main road, MJ left with his friend, and told Merylle (close enough) to take care of me (How sweet of him! He's generally a nice guy even though I played pranks on him when we were in elementary. He's a math wizard as well and yeah all I can say is he's a good friend to have. (✿◠‿◠) )

During our ride, Merylle and I talk about school-related stuff about re-sectioning and subjects.

I admit, the walk was not half-bad, compared to walking with my present classmates other than the Tank, AI, and Usagi. I mean, MJ, Merylle and I spent five years in elementary so it's reasonable, right?

*laughs* It's funny, though it has been a few years with my present classmates, I already knew their personalities.