Part 1: Opening
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Well, this was the first day of classes. What do you expect? Same old boring classroom. Same old noisy classmates. Same old school. But never same old get-togethers...
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What do I mean by never same old get-togethers?
Well for starters, Allen isn't going to be in the same school with us. He didn't even get to at least be placed in another section. *sigh* It was really hard for me to accept that fact that he wasn't going to be with us. I mean, at least he's not dead right? Hahaha... My laughs are just empty words chucked full of apathy inside and is displayed grandly with enthusiasm. To other people, it appeared like I was just playing for the lolz, and appearing all funny-like just because Allen left. Or if I may say forced to leave. No one really could know.
I already knew it even before classes had start but it really was a pin in the neck to be thinking the same thing every day that the only guy you could relate to is not present within your vicinity. I tried putting off of my mind. Some may say I'm just making it complicated for such a simple matter. Well, think of this. It's not like they were the ones who were friends with Allen. They never understood him. They never understood us. Heck, I guess they didn't even try to understand us at all.
They'll say this and that. We'll become your friends, they say. Can I volunteer to be your very first friend?, she said. Join us, he said. A bunch of they, she, he said. I can see pass through them. They may say the truth but all I can see were empty promises with no effort.
I tried to be cheerful that day. Inserting myself in various conversations with the AI and the Tank. But then, before the opening ceremony started, when people were just getting settled. I felt alone. Completely, coldly, utterly alone. As I have mentioned before in a post, I was just there in a corner... with no place... to belong... to. I often feel like a third-wheel. Others may not notice this but it was what I always felt around them. Just another person. Just another classmate. Just another acquaintance.
I tried to start a conversation, it failed miserably. I'm not the one to talk. I hate starting conversations especially with people I'm not closed to. I'm a socially awkward penguin. I can't even mutter a polite greeting unless you started it. People see that I'm confident on the outside but I'm really broken on the inside.
So enough with my life story. As what I mentioned from before, I looked invisible to each other. They'll never know I was there until minutes to know it was me. And the day goes. I'm 100% sure I'm the only person in the school that wore a hoodie. I mean, what kind of idiot wears a hoodie on a hot day?! Obviously, it would be me.
My achievements that day?
I made the AI confess that he was just playing that he went to Japan. I was like 'Srsly, bro? Did you even think someone was going to believe you went to Japan?' But then I made him say it, anyway, hoo, points for me.
Then I found out, that the Tank, has an illness. And his temperature was very high that day. I never expected what happened to him in the next few days.
And yeah, we pass through the usual routine. And by the end of the day.
Charlie and I kept on lamenting on how Allen was important to us. On why did he have to leave. On how we can relate to him. And all of the things that makes us remember him leaves a stinging feeling in our hearts.
(And this was basically the summary of our first day. Mostly consisting of me being all depressed with stuff. And controlling emotions. And I wrote this 4:54 AM and I'm gonna cut it off here. I'll continue this later.)
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