My Lonely Days...

I know Allen-chan must have it hard for him but you know me, I have weird, complicated emotional disturbances and mentalities.

So remember the "Poor Accidental Volleyball Incident" in my last post. Yeah, so the rest of the teachers that afternoon noticed that I look pale. And no classmate of mine (minus the AI, Tank and Gravity (Usagi) ever considered I was already feeling weak (...and miserable). Kujike, please stop appearing. Okay so I was saying. Right, Kujike, (since I never really bothered to write my very long list of modes) is my depressed mode.

Ever since Allen changed schools, he has been appearing more and more especially when Shizuki or yours truly (Misaki) is the one in charge and it results into a very weird situation. And note the AI was weirded out by this fact but that's for another post.

Considering this, it's another bipolar tendency. What do you expect? Even I know that my family is physically and emotionally healthy, we sometimes act like bipolar.

I don't even know if I'm as normal as a regular student that just imagines her personality disorders or I'm actually having them.

Okay, so this morning, after being hit with the volleyball, I felt as if I'm losing my memories of the day before. And before that day. And so on, so forth. I felt like I never existed. And was always absent. Cardinal-chan even state that I'm always absent, absent-minded that is but it actually never came to me as funny. I know that I'm absent-minded but I just got a lot of things in mind.

Our English Teacher triggered those possibilities of being absent and here I am, trying to remember. Marienie (that's what I call her, it's so obvious but I'm too lazy to think about names) told me that it might just be because I was not able to sleep properly. Well, yeah, it's kinda close. Anyways...


I'm a soldier. Joke. No really. You can say I'm part of some military group that's only known in our country. It's similar to Girl Scouts and Boy Scouts. And I've been a scout in elementary, mind you.


We have the orientation today and have to sacrifice another walking company with the AI and Tank. I'm a member and it's important to me. And we have to start our ranks or practices on Monday and so on with an M-W-F schedule. *sigh* I'll be sacrificing a lot. Wish me luck. Even though, all I get is bad luck.

It's quite different with me though, I know what they say, I always hear them, but they can never admit it to that person.