Summertime days have completely ended.
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Ok... wait... wait...
This is a warning. Since I look towards life differently, this post will have a reference to Kagerou Project. If you still don't what it is. Just go google it. Because mainly, this blog can be infested a lot of KagePro reference.
Ok, so here's a little basic information about KagePro.
It is a series of Vocaloid songs. It has a manga named Kagerou Days. It has an on-going anime called Mekaku City Actors. It also has light novels and anthologies.
Kagerou Project is made by Jin also known as Shizennoteki-p. The character designs were made by Shidu and some by Wannyanpu.
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As I have said, summertime days have officially ended. And classes are starting for us... I don't know about other people though because we have a lot of different time zones. And as I call this repeating school days is the Never-Ending School Daze. It was suppose to be a pun but, really, it isn't that quite funny to me.
I mean that Never-Ending School Daze can turn out into something like Outer Science and feel despair and misery from too much school work.
School days means study and study. Meeting people again. And random things that you usually don't do during summer.
I'm actually quite afraid that this time would come. There are a lot of things that are going to change and I'm sure of it. For example, as I briefly said from before Allen is going to study in another school because of reasons. Another fact, is that I'm going to be following my rules with some breaking here and there because I can't possibly just suddenly leave the life the made me feel myself.
I'm becoming emo. I think for the following days of these daze I'll be a real forever alone and just watching other people. I'm actually starting to be afraid of what will turn out of me in this school year. I mean, I already have established my goals this year, and such but my way of life just contradicts the way of life that I'm supposed to do.
If I left the life I'm happy with, I think I'm going to return to my normal, boring life. For the first time, I want my life to be interesting. I have viewed life differently before and saw it as the horrible truth that I want to escape. I have thought a lot through the summer days that no matter how much I want to escape the horrible reality, I can't anymore rely in hiding to my fictional fantasy.
I mean, this is life. And we have no choice but to live it. Cardinal-san in my opinion is "an otaku that lives as an otaku but lives like a student" It appears some kind of deception to me. That's why I think I'm going to be "an otaku that lives as a student" Maybe in that way, I don't have to let go of the life I had.
My last lifeline between the boundary of reality and fantasy is gone. That's why I need to face the world and live according to what I want.
I think I'm going to end it here.
It's quite ironical that I've been listening to Kagerou Daze, Ayano's Theory of Happiness, and Outer Science while writing this post.
_Mikomi Mode=Misa-chanthinkingdeeply_
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